We are gone from your shadows.

- Sucre

I can see myself lonely.
I could see by the reflection of the water spot.
How dark it is.
How empty inside it.

By just looking from the eyes.
I could tell.
How empty inside the soul.

I remembered the regret that Ive done.
I know.
I could tell.
The past reminds me everything of an insecure foundations. Collapsed and gone.

I wish I could turn the clock around.
I wish I could went back to the past.

But its never too late to change it back.
Thats how I visualise every single mistakes that I've done.
It intakes me , guided me to the wrong way.
That I didnt realize. I thought it was true. I thought I could trust.

Ill take whatever it takes, whatever challenges to face within,
Ill sacrifice everything to make this reality. Even if I couldnt manage it.
I have to force it. I have to give it all.
I know theres a strength within me. Inside me.
Ill do everything and obey if it takes me to escape from my comfort zone.
Motivation would always kept me on going. It never fails to let me down.
Its like an energy fuel inside your mind full of sources that you need.
It builds up a positive mind.
Its any point of the start in life.

I know its within me.
I just need to discover it.
Ill change every criticism into a strong strength that will everytime reminds me.
Something that is unexpected will come out infront of me.

I know what best for me.
Ill go ahead without fear of those that will distract me from doing so.

What I plan is, I got to make it reality for next year.
Ill going to make it happen.
Now I realized that I know I can do it.
Just by looking at this year it make a difference between the past 2 years.
It change me alot seriously.

I really have to prove them that Im capable.
We are Humans.
Humans does makes mistakes and they learnt from it.
So I guess its the matter of time.
Fight against time.

- Sucre

Sunday 13 Dec 09

Wake up at 8:45am ..
Kompang starts at 10. Sms Mir, late! Jamming in store, try out.
Went to Lelaki side first, eat Nasi Bryani!!! :P After that Panjy went to showcase.
Cock up first, second clean (:

Then Follow up to Woman's side.
Selawat and KoMPANG! KePPEL! hahahaha.
Played as Nyalu then Selang hahaha tukar2 LoL!
Then Take pic here and there.
Went back to CC ard 4 plus.

Went to airport Dance. Wering jeans :P
Train up abit for H2O
Then BbOy for awhile. Nid to train up Powermoveeees! Waaa! :DD
Nazri,Man,Julian,Shahrul and I decided to go Lan Battlefield.

Im china side. :D
Well.. after that follow Julian go KFC. Ate his fries and a lil bit of chicken ((: thanks eh julian.
And thanks eh Man ! Treat me Lan :D
Then talk about crapssss at MacDonald. Then went home took 8. ((:

Quite tiring aaahhhh!!
But enjoyed the Nasi Bryani!

- Sucre

PLayed L4D2 with Shahrul,Saak aka TapE,LuQmeEZy,FaRiz.
Great game.
I almost top of everything be it
Genereal Defence, Melee Fighter, Tank Slayer, Special infected {KILL},
Yes I crown the Witch :P

FARIZ IRITATING!!! I told you to run to the corner! Now you are pin down my Hunter!
I did survived "THE BRIDGE" :P
All dead except me. Lol. Ellis
Everyone changed their name to "UstazVoguelicios" "UstazMatRep" "UstazsuperMan" "UstazLiLbUttz"

HAHA! I was LMAO! :DD
Mepek saaakk koraang. LOL.
It was fun aahh.. Then Shahrul went someone Server and Anyhow Kill the PLayers. But kena Kicked. LoL.

WAKE UP CALLLLLL!!!!!!!!
Its just 3 more weeks to School Re-Open!
I mean 3 weeks? Whatt??
Next year would be my Yearr!
Well N-Level ajee.
But still it counts. I aim to go to Sec 5, and take my Os!
Mannn!! NExt year , must be serious gile babzz.
2 years later must be Serious gile babz to the core k?!

Hahaha. Well.. Sec 4 another suffering year. D:
Still need to improve On Dance. Got to learn Powermoves hehe ((:

- Sucre

Sigh.. Its been a long time i did not blog. Kinda rusty.. hehe.
Well i guess every day was a new day. I found it weird. Because every day I see the day, its always the same. Same thing I do, like today what you've done, its the same thing what you've done yesterday. And yesterday what you've done, its the same thing what you've done the day before yesterday.

How timw flies fast..
Last month was like Full-time Holiday. But still. Tired. Exhausted.
OBS camp, Sessioning, DX4. I mean wow.
I guess I did not have enough sleep maybe?
I was like thinking .. did I slept 8hours a day? I just felt I slept less.
Lol..

These days I slept like 12am-2am.
I am happy that I've downloaded AOE II LOL.
Kamil and I was talking about it like everytime? hahas. Percentage download.. Seeds.. Utorrents.. hahak.

Well coming right up H2N dance comp. I was waiting it . I thought the comp over . I was like ... When is it going to happen?? LOL. They did not respond, until Kamil told me Yesterday. ((:

Aite Got to Go. Sorry Short post :P
Till next time..

- Sucre

Dx4 .
We didnt make it thru the finals. It was okay. Its just the beginning. We never join DX B4, SO YEAH. We got the experience. I guess we should all learn our mistakes. Forgive but not to forget. But really, I was enjoying myself up there. Super best! :DD

I guess Im gonna Step up, and help Mil And Man for the next upcoming comp Insyallah. Ill try. I guess we nid to more on hitting those beats, like Popping kinda style. Yeah.. Perhaps next up DW.

Gonna train Powermoves now!! training flares! The Hollowback Was TAIcO SIAA haha! That was superb random! Lol..

-UpdAtes__________________

- Sucre

Just got back from OBS about three days ago.
NOw my skin have turned black!!
Nooooo! Like Michael Jackson, He started from black to white,
But im turning frm White to black?
Lol.

I miss becoming Food IC. seriously.
The Maggie tuna dat I cooked, impressed everyone. Haha I guess I could be a Chef one day. I miss OBS badly! I dont know Y! But I do miss OBS badly! I felt that I dont want to go home. Perhaps I wanna stay in OBS for another week. But I could see how time flies.

1st Day: Met each other, Ice Breaker. Bonding. In group 5. I was seperated from my Pasir Ris Friends. I was like WAHT!! lol. And Yeah. The group name was Marshall. David Marshall ya know? And our instructor was Dayah. Being the only Malay among the Pasir Rians. But luckily I met this guy from Yusof Ishak SS. His name is Alfyan. Lol.
Dayah created a game . We must memorize every single Name of our teammates.
Marshall 15 names:
-Alfyan
-Desiree
-Elizabeth
-Klodial
-Eunice
-Celeste
-Farah
-Samuel
-Aloysius
-Qing Hong
-Ian
-Joale
-Delvin
-Luke
-Jocelyn

Lol.:D Dayah taught us how to pich up the tents and also pack/unpack them.
Every mate must volunteer to become atleast one Ic. I chose to bcome the Food IC. At night we pich up our tents in the forest.

2nd Day: Morning PT. Push ups,Chin ups,Jumping jacks...
Dayah teach us how to Capsize, SeaX rescue.. cos day 3 we are gg to Sea Expedition.
However, after I capsize, the Seawater went through my nostrils, inside the gullet . And now the Acidic Seawater, Chocked me! The taste of seawater You of course dont wanna know. Its like YuCKs! Now I cant breathe properly. I drank up almost half of the Bottle And I spit it ouT!! It took 15minutes for me to cure. Then we all including Munshi kayak to another island. And we carry the kayaks and park it inside the forest. We bring all our stuffs inside the forest, pitch up tents at an Open area, the ground is sandy, no grass. But Got alot of Sandflies! Everyone was scratching here and there. At night, we share stories together. Ghost stories..
Then I cooked for them Maggie plus Tuna. Together I called it Maggie chicken tuna! Lol.. Me and Alfyan ate last but wif those noodles, almost fill to its brim of the mastin. Alfyan can't finish it, so its the best opportunity for me to eat all of them! Wooohooo! Cause every time Im hungry.. Lol :DD then briefing for Sea Expedition.

Day 3: Wake up 2am for Security Duty. The 6 of us, Me,Ian,QH,Alfyan,Eunice,Luke went to do our job to take care of the place. Then I heard that my friends saw WildBore!! They saw the trees were shaking and within seconds, the trees back to its original position. I was like OMG. :X Then our turn to check around if there's anything that wanted to disturb us, Still scratching bcos of Mosquitos and Sandflies! Walao! DX
Then at 5:15am wake up to go for Sea Expedition. Its around the Pulau Ubin. Its 16km.
About 8km, I started to vomit around 11 times. Seasick, Also not enough air to breathe. My instructor loosen up my Life Vest, and I continued to row with Danial. Baik Dan! I was at the front, He was at the back seat. Instructors asked me to eat oranges to heal up, but i ate alot already, still nothing. I vommit it back to the sea. Along the way to our Camp Site 2, I saw my friend beside me kayaking too. He was eating Oreo. I asked for half of it. The first bite, I was 2/4 heal. The second bite I was 3/4 wake up call. The last bite, I was Fully Cured. Then I said to Danial, Lets rolL!!!!!! Then Bravo, challenge race to Camp Site 2, Everyone was like OooOOOOHHHHHHHHHHH!!! v. kecoh! My energy Boost 110% We row until we are like infront of the Navigator. Then We kena whistle by him, then Danial and I was like WooWE!! Danial said, "Waaaahh Laju Red!?!"
I said," Ni semuer pasakl Oreo ah. Hahaha!!! Ade oreo???"
We all laugh like hell, nearly capsize you know???!!
At night we pitch up our tents at Camp Site 2. I ran to the toilet and guess what? Bathe AH!!! woots :DD The cold water is so refreshing!
Suddenly CAT 1. Rain cats and Dogs. We all gathered under a big shelter. Instructors then planned for us to sleep with the poncos. Lol I called it PONYO! They all teased me "BAik PONYO" I was like DIAM AH 1st round! hahahak :P

4th Day: Trekking. Destination:Camp site 1
Wake up, brush teeth cant shower cos too cold!!!!!!
Then All gathered and packed all stuffs. And go for hiking.!
We stick as one. Then sing also as one.
Reached Camp Site 1.
The NIGHT!!!!!!!!
I gotta a feelin! Tat tonight's gonna be a good good nite!
Lol :P
We all Marshall and Munshi(BRAVO) must do presentation for the food that we cooked.
Bestt!!! But Marshalls arent nice. But Decoration NICE! haha
I love Munshi's food. Nasi goreng guppy. I WAS LIKE WAT?! lol But seriously Taste Delicious...
That night, we all sleep in the MPH.
I join the Munshi group with Nabil,Danial,Acap(KUDA),Alfyan,Zul,GPS
I was beside DAn. Then got One INstructor come to our group she says,
"This group ahhh. Either you sleep or you pitch up ur tentSShXxsHSSS"
I was looking at the ceiling, then I turned around, when i heard TENTSSSSSSZZHS
Followed by Danial. When the Instructor went off, Me and Danial Started to LAUGH OUT LOUD SIAAAA!!!! hahahahahahaha.! Her 'S' PEKAT seyYY! hahahahahahahaha,.
That night cant sleep because of tat stupid JOKE!!
Then Nabil just smile cause he was infront of that instructor, he is enduring hes laughter. He just smiled. But he also laugh like hell after she went off. Them funny siaaa! LOL :P

Day 5: Its time to go..
Took alot pf PICS. Say gd bye to all. I just dont want to leace OBS . I miss the fun/memories we had in this Course. I hug everyone saying good bye all.
And yeah We leave Pulau ubin around 1 o'clock. I miss Marshall! I miss munshi! And I also miss Pebbles! Lol :DD She still cant catch me XP


Memories I had In OBS, The day that I'll not forget.
((:

- Sucre

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